Fear is a mind-killer

December 31, 2024

2024 was a year of optimism blocked by fear and vanity and a year teaching me the truth behind Frank Herbert's words: Fear is a mind-killer.

Alongside age and responsibilities, I found a fear that youth never revealed. A fear of losing, not being able to do what I thought was easy, and a deeper self-doubt. Privilege and freedom in time expenditure is an open-ended hourglass with sand sifting through, eventually bottoming out. When empty, something will happen. The options are "a 9 to 5" or forcing another, likely much harder path. Regardless, the softer path is gone.

Through 2024, the eraser closed in on the softer path ahead, with me battling vanity. I've built several things yet haven't shipped anything, fearing it might not work. Here's what 2024 looked like

Not a boring year. Only issue is; I didn't ship of the 5 shippable things to the public. Why, fearing it might not work and my self-image would erode. Counter productive? Yes. Silly? Yes. Will I do something about it? YES! 

2025 is the year where I'll ship all 4 to the public and then some! That's my pledge for 2025.

Thank you for reading along!
- Deani
Productivity
Nothing got done
I did.. Something.
Good!
Productive
Let's fucking go!
Optimism
Anxiety
Will this ever work?
I'm doing it!
No one else will be able to do this
Phenomenal 🚀
Show me some more :)